17 Years of Motherhood
In three days my oldest son will be 17 years old. Everyday I seem to be spending a lot of time thinking about this. Not about how sad I am he's 17. Just thinking about the fact that, 17 years ago my whole life changed and in those 17 years my whole life has continued to change. Not sure if it's like this for you, but it's like I suddenly see my life has an equator that was drawn 17 years ago. It definitely divides my life into before I was a mother and after I was a mother.
I was also thinking about the fact that 17 years ago my dad made a video for Aaron to watch on his 18th birthday. Wow, I don't know if any of us will be able to do it. On that video are many people who have left us. My Grandmother and Grandfather Miller, Mema Jordan, Uncle Gail, Uncle Johnny, Aunt Wanda, I am afraid I have forgotten who else is on their that has passed, it will be a gasping crying fest!!
For me my sons birth meant restoration. He is a teenager now and he thinks I hate him. Don't worry though he thinks you hate him too!! In fact everyone hates him, even President Obama!! Not sure how that equates but........ Oh, but if he only really understood how wrong he is and how he was truly loved before he was born. How much pain and anguish my life had been in. How I was sure he would never exist.
I read to him while he was in my tummy, everyday!! I swear his favorite book was Fox in Socks. He knew my voice so well that when he was born and was crying I said, Aaron sweetheart its okay and he turned his little head and looked for me!!
Two years before Aaron my life was torn apart. Everything was taken from me, memories, dreams, I left my job, moved to another state, found myself 28 and living with my parents. Then Aaron and since then complete restoration!! 17 years of a wonderful marriage, 17 years of loving on these now 3 children, 17 years of life!! Everything restored even my 3rd grade teaching position!!
When Aaron was tiny I wrote him a lullaby: I love you more than chocolate cake. Movie stars or Roller Skates. I love you more than the sun or moon. I do......I do........love you!!
I like living on this side of the equator of Motherhood. Thank you Aaron.......you gave that to me and I love you!!
Mom
I was also thinking about the fact that 17 years ago my dad made a video for Aaron to watch on his 18th birthday. Wow, I don't know if any of us will be able to do it. On that video are many people who have left us. My Grandmother and Grandfather Miller, Mema Jordan, Uncle Gail, Uncle Johnny, Aunt Wanda, I am afraid I have forgotten who else is on their that has passed, it will be a gasping crying fest!!
For me my sons birth meant restoration. He is a teenager now and he thinks I hate him. Don't worry though he thinks you hate him too!! In fact everyone hates him, even President Obama!! Not sure how that equates but........ Oh, but if he only really understood how wrong he is and how he was truly loved before he was born. How much pain and anguish my life had been in. How I was sure he would never exist.
I read to him while he was in my tummy, everyday!! I swear his favorite book was Fox in Socks. He knew my voice so well that when he was born and was crying I said, Aaron sweetheart its okay and he turned his little head and looked for me!!
Two years before Aaron my life was torn apart. Everything was taken from me, memories, dreams, I left my job, moved to another state, found myself 28 and living with my parents. Then Aaron and since then complete restoration!! 17 years of a wonderful marriage, 17 years of loving on these now 3 children, 17 years of life!! Everything restored even my 3rd grade teaching position!!
When Aaron was tiny I wrote him a lullaby: I love you more than chocolate cake. Movie stars or Roller Skates. I love you more than the sun or moon. I do......I do........love you!!
I like living on this side of the equator of Motherhood. Thank you Aaron.......you gave that to me and I love you!!
Mom
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